Sunday, August 14, 2005

Question

What makes me cry? ¿Qué me hace llorar?

*Babies- not being able to conceive and be pregnant, not having a child. El no poder ser "Madre"! Going for example to Baby Stores, Baptisms, First Communions, First Year Birthday Parties (rituals/traditions) and thinking that these are things that we, as parents, would've done also. Mi esposo y yo hubieramos sido buenos padres- tenemos mucho que dar- nuestros valores, creencias, apoyo, y sobretodo amor. It breaks my heart when I see children being abused/mistreated, or worse- killed by their own parents! It is at this time when I question God- Why?! ¿Por qué Dios no nos dió la bendición de un niño? ¿Por qué?

Adoption? I've brought the subject up with my husband, but he doesn't want to adopt at this time... He wants us to have a "bigger" home (single family home dwelling). Sí, mi esposo lleva un appellido latino, pero mentalmente/emocionalmente, no lo es! Esto es aveces un poco dificil en nuestro matrimonio. We, Latinos, have a saying that where one or two eat, ten can eat as well.

*My parents- my father's passing, and my mother's "frailty". El sufrimiento y fallecimiento de mi padre; la soledad y fragilidad de mi madre.

*Injustice, Suffering, War, Poverty- here, there, and everywhere! La injusticia, sufrimiento, guerra, pobreza- aquí, alla, y dondequiera!


I am almost finished with my book- The Historian by Elizabeth Kostovo (yikes!)
I also found a wonderful CD- Josh Groban's album "Closer" (music to help soothe the soul)

3 comments:

Unknown said...

i get very upset when i hear the news and there is yet another child that has been abused or murdered. life doesn't always seem fair. (sigh) thanks for sharing. hope you find something to make you smile.

Karen said...

Its heartbreaking and maddening when I hear someone has hurt a child in any way.

*HUGS* for all that makes you cry!!

You're such a wonderful support too, and I want to thank you for listening to me. Funny how we've had some similar things happen so its nice to have someone that understands.

Anonymous said...

Wow! Your post it has become sad, I see the suffering for you.

Espero que las cosas pueda mejorar, te entiendo cuando dices que donde come uno comen dos... siempre he pensado lo mismo... así que a ver si tu esposo se pone las pilas y todo vaya viento en popa con respecto a la adopción.

Kisses and hugs
God blesses of you